I honestly don’t know what to do with myself, I am so many different emotions all at once right now. That was an incredible hour of television, I was on the edge of my seat basically the whole time with the exception of the bits where I was under it and crying because it was also THE WORST. BUT IT ALSO WENT FULL CREEPY ASS HORROR MOVIE AND IT WAS THE BEST? ALSO THE SET UP FOR NEXT WEEK’S EPISODE?????? I’M SO HAPPY? LIKE SO HAPPY I CAN’T BELIEVE I JUST WATCHED THE 100?????
I’m getting ahead of myself, let’s recap!
The episode opens with the delinquents and their new dad sitting around a fire roasting marshmallows and telling stories and braiding their hair and generally hugging it out. Octavia is very sad that Lincoln has gone on vacation without her but Bellamy’s there to comfort her. It’s all very touching and lovely and absolutely 100% how it went down.
Alright, alright so the episode opens with a terrible thing we’ve known was coming ever since the season 3 trailer dropped and in a weird sort of way I am grateful that they spoiled it in the trailer and then got it over with more or less immediately because the situation in context was every bit as painful as I thought it was going to be.
If you’ve ever wondered what regretting your entire life looks like, this is it.
The remaining (*wails*) members of the rebellion make their way back to the cave in a beautifully shot, slow motion for maximum torment, entrance scene. Let me continue to stall for a minute and appreciate how well they visually represented Bellamy’s terror. One by one the the members of the rebellion enter the cave, the sound of their footsteps echoing, their faces hard and oh thank god there’s Octavia but then an empty shot where the missing member of the group does not enter, the sound drops out as Bellamy asks ‘where’s Lincoln?’ The volume up on Octavia’s shaky breath and she says ‘they put a bullet in his brain.’ Cue sad piano chords. A++++ direction and editing. We’re a minute in and the emotional agony is already off the charts.
Octavia proceeds to work some of her feelings out with her fists in Bellamy’s face. Oh god this scene was so fucking hard to watch. I’ve seen a lot of people describe this scene as abuse and they are not wrong. However, in my view, writing it off as simply abuse strips the scene of a lot of its complexity and nuance and if that’s how you’re taking it, you do you, I respect that, it was horrible, you may want to skip the next paragraph because I’m going to talk about some of the nuance.
I do not think for a moment the show was condoning Octavia’s actions. The tragedy piano and the focus on every other person in the cave either looking away or trying to step in clearly indicates that this is not okay. I also think it’s important to note that Bellamy tells everyone to stay out of it. He not only accepts his complicity in how everything got to this point and Octavia’s anger, I think he’s doing what he’s always done, taking Octavia’s pain on to himself. He knows that she needs this, he knows that this is at least partially his fault, he is willing to accept the consequences and hopefully absorb some of her pain to make her burden a little bit lighter. Is this healthy and good? No, not at all, but their relationship has always leaned toward the codependent side of fucked up due to the circumstances of their upbringing and I think Octavia losing it and turning it on Bellamy and Bellamy unflinchingly taking it is in line with their dynamic. The fact that the show made it so explicitly clear that Bellamy is completely on board with her meltdown both kills me and makes the scene a little easier to deal with.
Murphy: The apocalypse was 97 years ago, seriously, how are y’all like this?
Back in Polis, Murphy is chained to a wall and Ontari is having a bit of a panic attack as she grapples with the monumental task ahead of her, convincing the other clans she is the ascended Heda. I loooooooove the depth they added to Ontari’s character by showing her fears and insecurities. I love that through Murphy we get to see the two sides of her: the public badass and the private teenage girl who’s in over her head. It goes without saying that I also love Murphy’s one liners and the way he steps in and saves Ontari’s ass when she runs out of answers. I’m so into them you guys. I feel like they’re really similar people and they get each other in a way no one else does. I have boarded this garbage barge of a ship, I know it’s fucked up, leave me alone.
The moral of this story is if Jaha has an idea, just assume it’s bad.
Back in Arkadia, Raven is losing her mind. Lindsey Morgan gave one hell of a performance this episode and her mania as she tries to solve the ALIE problem and keep her out of her head via sensory overload is just the tip of the iceberg. I’m also weirdly tickled by Alie setting up shop as president of the Raven fanclub. Girl has got a massive lady boner for Raven (don’t we all). Abby swings by to clear the cult gathering away from Raven’s door and puts herself squarely back in Jaha’s crosshairs.
Monty and his mom have a really fucking emotional moment where Hannah comes and tells Monty that Pike knows he helped the rebellion pull of the prison break and he needs to run. Monty asking his mom if he could hug her and her broken ‘this can’t look like goodbye’ hurt my heart A LOT. Gosh I hope Hannah isn’t actually the spawn of satan and this isn’t a trap.
In the cave, Team Rebellion discuss their dwindling options. They need to kill Pike and deliver his head to the Grounders and lift the blockade and rejoin the coalition (sidebar, Bellamy rolling his eyes at the 13th clan business made me lol). BUT HOW? A timely radio call from Monty diverts their attention, he’s out of Arkadia and needs a pick up. Team Rebellion is reasonably concerned about a potential trap in the making. Octavia decides to take Bellamy along as a hostage and Kane signs off with the amendment that he should be chained and gagged as Bellamy ‘is the enemy.’ *weeps*
Back in cult land, Alie holds the first meeting of the Raven Is The Best club and explains to everyone how Raven is a magical and unique snowflake, too strong for this world and how can she ever hope to subdue such a beautiful unicorn? Jaha reaffirms his the worstness by suggesting that free will is a problem and they should just get rid of it and force her back into the fold. The nuke-happy AI gives him some heavy side eye but in the end her boner for Raven wins out and she agrees that taking her choices away is the best call. Way to out evil the cause of the apocalypse, Jaha.
Raven: even at my worst I am still smarter than everyone in this room.
Meanwhile, Raven has cracked the key to breaking Alie’s hold, all they need is one of the wristbands the delinquents were originally sent down with. WHERE EVER WILL THEY FIND ONE OF THOSE? Suddenly the weirdly significant shots of Niylah’s wrists back in 3×01 make sense. Alie shows her displeasure and gives Raven all of her pain and memories back at once cuing up another incredibly hard to watch sequence of Raven in total agony. Abby and Jasper rush her to medical where Jackson immediately betrays them (NOOOOOOOO).
What happens next was AMAZING (before you get too excited, it’s still awful). The 100 goes full on creep af horror movie and Alie takes over Raven’s brain completely. Bye bye Raven, hello Alie in a Raven suit. Lindsey Morgan fucking KILLS IT with a dead on recreation of Alie’s creepy, blank stare, she even changed up her voice. CHILLS ALL OVER MY BODY GUYS WE ARE GOING TOTAL INVASION OF THE BODY SNATCHERS AND I LOVE IT.
Back in Polis, Ontari continues to panic and Murphy continues to help. She names him her flame keeper. I’m still not all that into Polis.
Hey look! There’s Finn!
CUT TO THE DROPSHIP. Even though this scene was horrible and (naturally) a trap (FUCK YOU HANNAH) I am always so happy to see the dropship again. CAMP DELINQUENT 5EVA. The rebellion is outmatched and Bellamy appears to turn on them to get back in Pike’s favor. While I did not believe that he was actually rejoining (I know Bellamy’s made some hideously bad choices this season but, guys, come on), I did very much worry his plan was something along the lines of stall and hope for the best (I love the dude but his strategic thinking skills come and go as the plot demands).
We go back to Arkadia where the cult is trying to convince Abby to join up. It turns out Alie’s love of Raven is still second to her need for brains and she slits Raven’s wrists and threatens to let her bleed out if Abby doesn’t take the cookie. Fortunately, Abby’s love of Raven is pure and true and she takes it. NOOOOOOOOO. All I will say is they better get Abby out of the City of Light before shutting it down because I am deeply not prepared for the prospect of Clarke having to kill her mom.
Sigh. Back to Polis. More Ontari freaking out (though her practicing her lines was super endearing). She puts on her badass pants and shuts down the haters by putting smushing dude’s eyes out with her thumbs (Murphy’s little I’m proud of you girl smile was so cute what is wrong with me). Have the writers mentioned they like Game of Thrones? Guys, I think the writers really like Game of Thrones. I know they’re really subtle about it but you can see the homage if you squint.
Sometimes the show DOES give us nice things.
In the woods, it turns out the plot demanded Bellamy use his brain. Yay! I love when Bellamy gets to use his brain! He leads Pike straight across the Grounder barricade. There is an incredibly satisfying moment where Pike gets shot in the chest. I’m so happy you guys.
Kane saddles up to take his giftwrapped housewarming present to his bff Indra and pauses to drop some angsty ‘I’m not mad, I’m disappointed’ fatherly wisdom on Bellamy’s shoulders. He asks him if he did this for Octavia or if it was because it was the right thing to do and tells him if he can’t tell the difference, he’s still lost. SO MANY EMOTIONS.
Back to Polis again (sigh). Ontari takes Murphy to her rooms and orders him to be chained up and then takes off her clothes. Murphy and I are both caught off guard, this abruptly got unexpectedly kinky. Murphy’s all yes I do have a thing for crafty girls, but alas I already have a lady. Ontari’s like yeah but is she here and will she kill you if you don’t bone her? I am…conflicted. I love them, but this is not consent by any stretch of the imagination and I don’t fully understand why the show felt the need to go there. The 100 is all about nothing being black and white, from the characters to the decisions they make to the situations they’re in (in terms of power dynamics, Ontari’s got the literal upper hand, Murphy does hold a lot of power over her by keeping her secrets, not saying this makes anything okay, just saying there’s nuance), but Ontari’s coy smiles, the sexy music, and Murphy’s dry smile and ‘the things I do to survive’ makes me think we’re supposed to be more on board with this scene than I’m personally comfortable with. At the same time, I……still……..ship it? Brb, adding this to the pile of things I’m into that I probably shouldn’t be.
Aaaaaand we’re back to Arkadia. I’ve neglected to mention that Jasper’s been backing up Abby in the quest to save Raven and now he’s the only hope and it’s….awesome? Like, holy shit, I love Jasper again? Like a lot? I didn’t expect this. He grabs Raven and steals a Rover, busts the fuck out of Arkadia and LO! A WILD CLARKE APPEARS. CLARKE’S BACK CLARKE’S BACK CLARKE’S BAAAAAAAAAACK. She tries to take charge of the situation and in a scene that’s been a long time coming, Jasper stands in for all of us and points out that she has no idea what the fuck is going on here and she needs to shut the fuck up and roll with it for a minute (I love the girl and get where she’s coming from but godamn Clarke, you shut yourself out of all of this, you don’t get to make the calls right now). Because Clarke is smart and awesome, she recognizes this is maybe a good time to fall in line, hops in the Rover, DROP KICKS A DUDE OUT THE BACK AND ONWARD INTO THE GREATEST BOTTLE EP OF ALL TIME.
- how much do I love Miller, guys? SO MUCH. He’s currently the only member of the rebellion willing to cut Bellamy and Monty any slack and bless him for that. Heart you Miller, please don’t die.
- Did the ambassador dude remind anyone else of the squirrely sidekick from The Mummy but in eyeliner?
- NIYLAH’S COMING BACK NIYLAH’S COMING BACK NIYLAH’S COMING BACK
- Um, so, hold up, is Pike a Nightblood or was the lighting in that scene just weird and his blood looked black?
- I see Octavia has really embraced the Blood Must Have Blood philosophy, surely this will not cause massive amounts of friction between her and everyone else going forward.
- Lmao @ Clarke’s hair already looking so much more like her actual hair.
- Oh god, Clarke’s horrified ‘Mom?’ Crying about it. I get that Clarke had to take care of herself and that’s cool and good and fair but also she missed a lot and she is not going to love the recap.
- Is anyone else as creeped out as I am about stage 2? WHAT’S STAGE 2? PLEASE BE SOME EVEN CREEPIER HORROR MOVIE SHIT.
- OH MY GOD Y’ALL I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK. I NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS THOUGHT THE SHOW WOULD BE KIND ENOUGH TO GIVE US AN ALL DELINQUENT BOTTLE EP RACING AGAINST THE CLOCK TO SAVE RAVEN AND I’M LEGIT CRYING TEARS OF JOY AS I TYPE THIS BECAUSE IT’S HAPPENIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING
- Now go read Natalie Crown’s post about the ep and freak out with us please and thank you.
OH MY GOD GUYS THIS EPISODE WAS SO GOOD THE SHOW I LOVE SO MUCH IS COMING BACK MY DELINQUENT BABIES ARE DOING STUFF TOGETHER AGAIN I’M SO FUCKING HAPPY HOW ABOUT YOU?