Last year I started a little project called Project: Hindsight and the goal was to see how my feelings of one of the most popular Young Adult series has changed. Well, I tried, but I just couldn’t continue on with it. I only seemed to be able to read Twilight, New Moon and Midnight Sun and even that was a struggle. I quickly learned I had to pace myself while re-reading the series with good books sprinkled in. Otherwise, I would have fried all my brain cells at once. And while becoming a member of “Team Zombie Forever!” is a goal of mine, I don’t quite think I’m ready just yet.
My re-reading of Twilight was an interesting one. At first, it was funny, but after I got past chapter 13 it all went down hill from there and I started skimming more often than not. But I persisted and found myself getting increasingly angry at the book. I even did something I have never done before: mark my book up with a pen. My anger, it seethed and I let that damn book have it. I know, I know. I probably broke about 50 reader-cardinal rules by doing that, but you know what? I REGRET NOTHING!
When I got to New Moon I lost my will to live. Suicidal Bella was way more than I could handle again. I don’t even think I got halfway through the book before I chucked it at the wall. There really isn’t a good reason for a person to have so much hostility towards a fictional character. Yet, here I was plotting Bella’s murder thousands of different ways. You know? Kinda like how Edward did when he first met her except without me sparkling in the sun. Avada Kedavra!
Oddly enough, I actually enjoyed re-reading Midnight Sun
The Unofficial Stalker’s Handbook. Not because it’s a good book. Oh, no. It’s terrible! Lol. No one stalks/creeps better than Edward and seeing him obsess over whether or not he should eat Bella always brought on a fit of giggles. I mean, *snicker* there is nothing quite like watching a hundred-year-old oil a young girl’s window to gain entry. LOL!
I really wanted to get to Eclipse, but other more interesting books got in the way and I kept putting it off. It’s… not gonna happen. My reading time is already limited as it is, which sucks because I remember liking Eclipse best of all out of the series. But the important thing to remember is I would probably hate it now. 😛
I’m ashamed to say I’m actually happy I dodged the shit-storm bullet known as Breaking Dawn. When I realized I was dreading the day I got to Breaking Dawn, I knew it was time to call it quits on the entire project. As much as I did enjoy writing the three Twilight reviews, I had to know when to step back and think about my mental health.
So it’s time to lay this project to rest, but before I do, let’s have a little reflection on what Twilight has taught me about myself as a reader. I’m really surprised how much my tastes has changed over the years. Obviously, my standards at the time were low and now I’m extremely picky and hard to impress. Now, I hate formulaic Young Adult novels, Mary Sues, books with half-assed plots, insta-love, poor world-building, and co-dependent relationships. I mean, when I sit down and think about how much I used to like Twilight, it disturbs me. I ran out to my Walmart and purchased the entire series! And I own the first movie! You have to realize that is huge for me since I almost always check out books from the library and rarely buy movies. How could I have liked this?! But, you know what? I can’t be too mad because I know there are other people out there who were/are WAY worse than I was.